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Midnight Oil by Hang-Yourself, literature

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Midnight Oil

The days move to slow And I've got places to go As I try to unlearn what I already know I've got so much to do and so little to show So I'm burnin' the Midnight Oil For me to get in what I need, I'll trade all my sleep, I'll trade it all quick, and I'll trade it for cheap, When I just can't keep up with the standard upkeep, By burnin' the Midnight Oil 'Cause I'm just not that fast; I can't quite make it last All the things I regret that I never got past I'm tryin' to make time without goin' too fast By burnin' the Midnight Oil I just stay up late And procrastinate Outpaced by the pace of my uncertain fate I won't take much

Bad kind by Hang-Yourself, literature

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Bad kind

I'm the broken heart of a thousand little kids Who never found out how to stand up strong I'm made of perversions denied Just a mild obsession with fearing repercussions 'Cause it's a bad kind of day when your love is a weapon. I'm the crying eyes of a thousand little kids Who never saw through the bullshit for long I'm full of lies realigned Just a frantic conclusion drawn from bad news 'Cause it's a bad kind of mile in these beaten up shoes I'm the missed chance of a thousand little kids Who never could tell the right from the wrong I'm in the past undefined Just an opportune moment that passed them by 'Cause it's a bad kind o

Shaky faith by Hang-Yourself, literature

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Shaky faith

I've been let down again Things I trust are falling apart And I've got that sinking feeling Like I've spent all my time Between shams and lies I'm disappointed in ways That I never thought I could be So I'm stepping off my shaky faith today. It's a scary feeling, that first step And the closer you get, the worse it feels Right before you make it all the way You'd rather do anything else But they say that courage is action In the face of fear So I think I'll use my little spine So I'm stepping off my shaky faith today Nobody ever said it'd be like this It always sounds so bad, so scary Like the end of the god damn world But

A place to be by Hang-Yourself, literature

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A place to be

I need a place to be A place I need to never leave Made of pale shadows and Smoky dreams seen through mirrors Where color is just the remnants of emotion And the very air twists the light Like water in a glass I want to bathe in heat And drift between death and sleep Paralyzed in vague pulses of pleasure I want a place free of logic and reason Where I can blend hope and sorrow And invent hues I've never felt before I want to be dragged under and inhale surrender To sink soft and slow forever, weaving In and out of lucidity and euphoria I want to be warm and safe, But punctured with regret To keep my water world from stagna

Resignation and apathy. by Hang-Yourself, literature

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Resignation and apathy.

I've got great music, But nothing to say I just make up words And hope they fit the melodies I don't have yet Because I'm just trying to sound like I care I hope no one knows that I'm just Extrapolating pretention To try to fill sonic space With things I don't believe So that everyone will say "Ah ha! He has merit and meaning" Even though I'm just full of showy tunes That are enough without the words But I still shove in useless chatter Because I crave popularity And all I've got is resignation And apathy.

On saving a drowning man by Hang-Yourself, literature

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On saving a drowning man

So won't you Sing To Me Sing to me Soft Dark And Deep Because I can't seem to See In This Blinding, mind-numbing Sleep So Please Call Out to Me Please Call Out to Me Because I'm Paralyzed in dreamless sleep Awaken me to set me free Adrift I can't feel anything So I wait inside my prison sleep I need you to Dive Down Deep Drag me out of Where I Sleep Pull me up to the Surface and Let me Awake Because I can't stand to Sink Farther Away I crave to come back to what I used to know To come back to those I used to love To be born again out of this sea Where I wait for you to rescue me So hurry

T.A.O.B.F., Avarice Version. by Hang-Yourself, literature

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T.A.O.B.F., Avarice Version.

I'm too soft to stay alive Not strong enough to step and stride I can't breathe the fire I need So for now I'm blowin' smoke Count down the seconds to collision 3, 2, 1, ignition I'll burn down and rise again My fiery tale will have its smoky end For a second I'll become the way I promised myself I'd never be To cut off all the pain of life I'll set the world on fire And now I'm burnin' alive I was too soft to stay alive Too weak to give it one more try And now I'll slip into the fire To try and start again I'm burning from the outside in Still trying to stop my final sin The last time I try to survive And keep the best pa

The Meaning of Life by Hang-Yourself, literature

Philosophy 2010 by Hang-Yourself, literature

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Philosophy 2010

Mr. Ray: Since you're a Philosophy teacher guy, it seemed the logical thing to talk to you about. A while back, I did a bunch of thinking about stuff, and I came up with a few things, but I'm still sort of hashing it all out. I've never met anyone who even really understood what I was talking about (Small town? Probably.), let alone agreed with me. So I figured I would throw this out, just sort of for shiggles and gits. And hey, maybe you'll be able to help me figure out what's goin' on. 1. There is no free will. Alright, this one always starts out as a little hard to deal with, because people as a species base sort of a lot on the fact th

Hope for the Spineless by Hang-Yourself, literature

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Hope for the Spineless

It's in every golden sunrise, A silver sliver of perfection, It's the sky's own piece of pleasure. The tiniest little slip, It's orgasm, pre-production, The first day's light of heaven But no thanks, I'll keep my spine today. It's in every blooming flower The innocent spread Of virgin petals Quivering in the breeze Waiting, open in the air To be taken up by Impregnation But no thanks, I'm going numb today. It's the look in their eyes Those magical half-seconds Right before the best kiss The hanging space in time Of trust, faith, love And desire But no thanks, I'm not failing today. Because all the treasures Of the sky,

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Chernobyl Sky by Hang-Yourself, literature

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Chernobyl Sky

It's like I'm losing control I'm watching your bombs come at me Everything is in slow motion I can see them getting close I've been running for so long But I must be underwater Or buried in the sand I'm going so slowly Here comes the shadow But wait, it reminds me of the sunshine This is a raid of false promises Followed by a tactical strike Feign and coup de grace all at once These are the things I cannot bear to see Because I find no shreds of Honesty here I want an end to all this You'll be my nuclear revolution I'll be your Chernobyl sky Apocalyptic detonation This is a biblical cataclysm Now we're breathing in the fir

Collage by Hang-Yourself, literature

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Collage

Recently I've suffered massive redirection Every Explosion I bore witness to Pales in comparisons of power To what I see in your eyes: Instant reconstruction Of what took a lifetime to collapse This is so unfamiliar. All the secrets I kept Are so frivolous now All the things I never told you Don't really matter anymore. Your picture Is worth ten thousand of my words. I missed how good it felt To breathe again I'd been suffocating for so long All the machines I never fixed All the trains I crashed Everything I killed for Everything I never trusted you with The Circles I was trapped in The Causes I made myself believe The

Driftwood and Thunderbolts by Hang-Yourself, literature

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Driftwood and Thunderbolts

Stand upon the shoreline Tonight we'll watch me drown Count my fingers as they slip beneath The crest-falls of the waves. Be sure not to miss the last one, It bears the scar you gave me. Give me the courtesy of crying As everything I mean to you Drowns with me. Don't get up though, We both know you're too good to save me. Then only you and I will keep your secret That you threw me in this water And cried in the rain as I drowned. How hard I hope it haunts you That you chained my feet to love And dropped me in the sea. But you left my hands unbound That I might fight to swim Yet be too weak to stay afloat. But I have sa

Healer by Hang-Yourself, literature

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Healer

I'd trade your lying beauty For my ugly truth any day We have to tear you back to nothing; Strip away the scars And it will make you hurt In places you never knew you had I'll bathe you in everything you fake So you can see every place I watched you fail yourself For all the distance you've traveled You've nothing great to show for it If I've added all the pieces right Your insides feel like lead And you're choking back tears Your skin feels on fire But your very bones are freezing And just before your wasted life Is expelled from your body You'll see for the first time That there is only what is done to you And what you

The Haunt by Hang-Yourself, literature

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The Haunt

She'll never see him And he'll never leave her side Every hour she sleeps He hovers by her bedside To hear the purr of her breathing She turns his June nights frigid And he gives her all his warmth To save her from the harshest December There are bonds they made That she's forgotten He is tied to her in ways She doesn't understand He's in the promises her eyes make That her lips never say His protection of her is so boundless He's never been so weak as to fail her The pedestal she's placed upon Hides his ghost in its marble He hangs inside her love An unknown hero in all her wars That she seems to win by magic It's the g

Anniversary by Hang-Yourself, literature

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Anniversary

This is the day We jump on the showboat To be thrown astern And dragged away by our ankles Kicking and screaming But we're tethered to the paddlewheel And it will keep pulling us in Until we can feel it crush us from the toes up And there's no escaping No matter how hard we swim Until it cracks the last little shards of our skulls And hurls our shattered remains Out into the river To sink until even our souls Are trapped in the silt on the bottom. This is the day We stroll through the cemetery And I'll whisper such sweet Symphonies of passion in your ear That you'll drop between the gravestones And in the midst of all

The Art of Breathing Fire by Hang-Yourself, literature

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The Art of Breathing Fire

Tonight I get the late shift Which never used to bother me But now sources I once could pinpoint Have fallen beneath my radar I'll spend hours staring Blindly into the Arizona night And all I hear is whistling, Wait, Something's coming, Now all I can do is duck And count down the seconds To Collision 3…2…1…Ignition Everything's evaporated Because you're like dragon fire Coming through the roof My skin can't stand this much longer If you don't stop my blood will catch And I'll be full as dangerous as you But I will lack your silvery scales To save me from the fires I unleash So everything that I burn I'll burn

Shiftspace by Hang-Yourself, literature

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Shiftspace

Take a step outside with me We'll hold hands to pass through Plate glass windows As I lead you outside of yourself. Welcome to my secret place Past the end of everything Because I need you to witness What I can't describe Come with me I'll show you what it's like To transcend everything that used to matter You can grow a brand new sense Beyond visions Beyond noises Beyond all you felt Beyond everything you pass through We'll find the shifting space And share it between the two of us, To capture now What forever never brings We'll be paradox and contradiction I'll hold your knuckles in my palms From behind your back and t

Jealousy Song by Hang-Yourself, literature

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Jealousy Song

It's time we had a talk You see I've been thinking... Every time I am with you I feel traces of him This is no time for your secrecy For all you've seen me see through You would still blow smoke at me? Your dishonesty will be Your last insult to me Because your lies are awfully cold Perhaps I'll heat them up a bit First I'll grab the coals from our fireplace Because nothing hurts so bad as his scent That I smell upon you It's ironic, we've not taken down The Christmas lights from the hearth I remember how innocent I thought you were When we strung them up here But I was a fool because I love you I never found the treacher

Lazarus Girl by Hang-Yourself, literature

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Lazarus Girl

When we meet again I'll load cartridges of truth In my shotgun mouth And spray you so full of reality You'll bleed the answers That quench the burn of my questions Until then however, I'll just wait Patiently checking my ammunition And training my aim Because it would be a shame If I were to miss Such an important target But after I've unloaded all my shots And drained what it is I need of you I'll patch you back up And jolt your eyes open again With a great shock of love You'll have seen the killer And the savior in me And you'll wonder why every time You kept passing over me So please My Lazarus girl Let me show you t

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Selotape and Paperwings x by furiousfaries, literature

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Selotape and Paperwings x

Ouch.. they fall like daggers to my bleeding insanity and again i'll never no. how much there was to know. Refuse me into those arms that sufficate me in my sleep and hold me from my restless dreams.. Push the pillow to my face. One day I'll rip off these strings That tug on my tiring bones And selotape My paper wings To skin with tears so deep You can't see them bleed, Anymore. I bang my skull Against the wood That blocks me from Your stare And if I close my eyes Harden enough You'll never really have been There. To hear your sweet baited breath Upon my coated skin Worn with year of knowledge And running away

Birth of a Cloud by Incesticide, literature

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Birth of a Cloud

Remember the last time you looked at me? My bones melted into milk And I fell to the floor Only to hope that maybe you'd step on me next. But you never did You just keep on looking at the puddle I had become Until I began to evaporate. That's when you decided that you'd had your fun. But now I'm a cloud with nowhere to go Except into the sky where I'll watch you all night And throughout the next day. But soon I'll collide with another of my kind And we'll become one for a while. One day me and this girl will rain down on your world And you'll just laugh and jump in our puddles Pretending you don't know that it's us. You'll re

My Mountain by daylightfading, literature

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My Mountain

You were my mountain. You stood before me, tall and brave. I looked you in the eye, And i saw home. So I crawled up your jagged slopes, And I bathed in your icy pools, And I rested on your highest peak. You whispered promises while I slept, So I shed my armor And let go of the world. I laid there, Basking in your love. You lifted me up, Held me in your hands And left me vulnerable. You brought me close enough to touch the stars. Close enough to feel every drop of rain like a cinderblock. Close enough to be kn ocked over by every gust of wind. You showed me the world, But didn't protect me from it. So I bruised. I bled. T

Awesome by TheBeigeKnight, literature

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Awesome

Listen to me, I will give you wisdom. You may not like it, you may deny it, but it's true. There is no such thing as good and evil. There is no such thing as right and wrong. There is only power. There is only. . . awesome. Good and bad people are only people who agree or disagree with what you believe. So fight your wars and choose your sides, I will fight for me and only me. I will destroy you, if I must, to be the best. To be the greatest. To be. . . awesome.

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In Anticipation of Eloping by Hang-Yourself, literature

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In Anticipation of Eloping

Let's self-medicate Before we start our run This will likely be the last chance we'll have Because we're never comin' back. We'll watch this city sink Behind the horizon As we drag the sky along behind us Don't slip I'll have to catch you to keep you from falling And we both know Now is not the time for slowing down I can already feel the way The air burns cold in my lungs And the winter rain Beats down upon my head So desperate, our escape tonight Our legs will pound out our path I'll hold your hand so Even though we're too high to see straight We'll never lose our way Oh how I can't wait To turn our backs On these br

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Hang-Yourself

Jun 5, 2005

Oi

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With a new deviation, a new Journal entry. I'm back in my hometown, which is a little strange, because I feel like everwhere I go I'll see someone I know. I would imagine our town to be bigger than that, but I guess I'm imagining wrong. It's been nice to see some old faces, it's been awkward to see others. And MAN do I need to get laid. Eesh, it's like I'm suffocating.

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Hang-Yourself

May 7, 2005

Scraps

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Went through the old stuff and put what I didn't like in scraps.

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Hang-Yourself

Apr 12, 2005

Recent Discovery:

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Everybody's heard of being in the closet. Like when you're gay, but you keep it a secret, so no one knows about it. Well it's not just gays anymore. Lots of straight guys, that I know personally, are stuck in the closet. They can't admit to the world, and some can't admit to themselves, that they're straight and that's okay. Often referred to as "Nice Guys (tm)", these poor kids have repressed and denied their sexuality because of oppressive social standards. Normally standards like "My boyfriend is such an insensitive asshole" or "Why can't I meet any nice guys?", but they can range to "I hate it when guys are nice just to get in your pan

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furiousfaries

Jun 18, 2005

Thank you very much for my favourite on selotape and paperwings it's very much appreciated

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hey man... just wanted to say how's it all going?
also, i wanted to thank you, your support for what little work i put out has been appreciated. i feel horrible, i should really be commenting on your stuff as well. but do know that i do read everything you write, i'm just usually too drunk to comment....

anyway... hope all is well... see ya around

Midnight Oil by Hang-Yourself, literature

Bad kind by Hang-Yourself, literature

Shaky faith by Hang-Yourself, literature

A place to be by Hang-Yourself, literature

Resignation and apathy. by Hang-Yourself, literature

On saving a drowning man by Hang-Yourself, literature

T.A.O.B.F., Avarice Version. by Hang-Yourself, literature

The Meaning of Life by Hang-Yourself, literature

Philosophy 2010 by Hang-Yourself, literature

Hope for the Spineless by Hang-Yourself, literature

Chernobyl Sky by Hang-Yourself, literature

Collage by Hang-Yourself, literature

Driftwood and Thunderbolts by Hang-Yourself, literature

Healer by Hang-Yourself, literature

The Haunt by Hang-Yourself, literature

Anniversary by Hang-Yourself, literature

The Art of Breathing Fire by Hang-Yourself, literature

Shiftspace by Hang-Yourself, literature

Jealousy Song by Hang-Yourself, literature

Lazarus Girl by Hang-Yourself, literature

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Selotape and Paperwings x by furiousfaries, literature

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*In Anticipation of Eloping* by Hang-Yourself, literature

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In Anticipation of Eloping by Hang-Yourself, literature